22 February 2010


So, my last post was pretty despairing. Feeling better now, though. I got my motivation back, and now everything is going by quicker than I could have imagined.

There are quite a few professional developments!

--Went to the first Filmmakers Forum last week and made a lot of contacts.
--Secured a job doing a Little Rock DJ's make-up for a promo video.
--I am on IMDB!
--I'm now committed to two movies for next month.
--My first thesis photo shoot is this Sunday, the 28th!
--I am volunteering as a SFX make-up artist for the UCA Active Shooter Exercise next month.

I'm finally starting to feel like a professional. It's a nice feeling... things are falling into place, and I can't wait to finish my thesis portfolio and throw myself head-on into make-up after graduation.

:) kbai.

18 February 2010

Life, last semester, and this whole being a successful individual thing...

Recently it's been feeling a little like claustrophobia.
There's too much that's falling apart in my hands, too much ill that I'm seeing.
Too much I'm just not motivated to do, too much I refuse to do on principles I can't even explain properly.
Too much anger, too much hurt kept silent.
Too much I can't do to help other people.
Sometimes I feel like a failure, like I can't get myself out of this rut I've dug.

I'm an emo mess sometimes, bear with me.
It'll be better tomorrow.

02 February 2010


Just wanted to say that we set the date. :)
7 August 2010.