Today was a good day. I managed to almost completely get through my first weekly walk/run routine this morning. ("Almost completely" because I skipped one running segment near the middle of the course to keep walking and loosen out my muscles). The course is actually a series of podcasts I heard about from Emily some weeks ago... with the aim of getting a beginning runner up to running 5k in 9 weeks. Pretty cool, right? I'm also working on getting to two hundred sit-ups in six weeks.
So while I've gained a bit of weight over the past semester and break, I'm getting the physical side of myself back on track for one of the first times since... well, it's been a while.
Almost had a small freak-out tonight while studying. I'm just so distracted tonight... thinking about too many things. I emailed Sephora about their new store opening in Little Rock this spring. Hopefully they'll email me back. I don't know if I'll be able to get a job with them, but it's what I need right now. I have to start getting connections... and the whole vastness of my future ahead of me is more than a little daunting. I know what I want, but will I be good enough to reach it? Will I have enough ambition and spirit?
It was these questions (and many, many more) that made me lay my head down on my desk and breathe. I have to keep telling myself that I have time. I can do anything I want. I don't have to worry yet.
Yeah, and then I remember that I'm telling that to someone who worries to the point of obsession about these types of things. It drives people crazy, but it's the way I am.