Aie, me. I'm just so tired. Batter up?... I think I'm going to sit this one out.
02 October 2008
My animal is the koala.
It's getting easier to deal with being alone when I shouldn't be (if that makes any sense). A couple of weeks ago, I was an absolute mess. I guess it's just when... when your heart breaks and rebreaks a hundred thousand times over things you can't really deal with openly, self-preservation can't help but kick in. I tried for a long time to make this one different, to keep myself from putting distance between us like I always seem to do. And for a long time, I did pretty well. But the insecurity and unease was eating me away with about the same effects as hydrofluoric acid. In short: painful. So... it really just fills me with this horrible, heart-sinking sadness, now that I know things have probably passed the point of no return. I had such high hopes... I thought I'd really encountered someone who could get me.